Being Sick Sucks.

Ok, so not only am I sick, but I'm having the period from hell. 

UGH. (Seriously. I'm on day 14, and now it's so heavy I'm changing the cup every 1/2 hour to an hour for the last two days. My OBGYN has been notified, but hasn't gotten back to me yet.)

No fashion. Ever again. Because I'll just bleed onto it. I swear, I have run out of underwear. There is no help for me. #SendAbsorbantCouchCushionsTheresThatMuchBloodImDYING #NeverLeavingTheToiletForFearMyUterusMightFallOut

Seriously though, I feel like I might bleed to death. I'm so tired. I hate when my period gets all out of hand and my entire uterus decides to aim for disembarking. I'll probably need blood after all of this. Whole blood, not just iron. Ugh. 

THIS IS WHY I WANT A HYSTERECTOMY. But will they give me one? Noooooo. "You're only in your 30's." I'm told. *glares* 

I might kill the next person who denies me my god given right of removing my lady parts. Honestly, I might. 

On top of bleeding, I'm still sick. I'm getting better slowly, but I'm exhausted all the damn time. 

I'm on bed/couch rest but I refuse to die. I'm too damn stubborn to die. 

OOTD: 

Minky Blanket and Unmellow Yellow Tieks. 

Live Long and Don't Die From Blood Loss

My baby boy, my firstborn child, my sweet chubby toddler is turning 16 today. 

I can't believe I'm at this point. I remember holding him in my arms in the hospital, a day after giving birth to him and doing all the math about how old his older sister and I would be on his "milestone" birthdays. 16 being one of them. It felt like so far away at the time, and *snap* here it is. 

I miss my boy. He lives in Seattle with his dad. I saw him this past November, but I rarely get the opportunity to fly out there to see him (airfare is expensive, and so is car rentals/hotel/meals/etc.) We're hoping to send Chloe out to see him this Christmas, so at least they can spend it together. We would fly him here, but he has A LOT of health conditions. He's Autistic, a Type-1 Diabetic and those two alone prevent him from flying alone. He has a bunch of other things as well, so him flying solo is out of the question. And if we go there, we have to pay for all the travel stuff as his father and I are not on the greatest terms. (Let's just say, it's a really good thing we're 2500 miles apart.)

But yeah. I miss my kiddo today. I had plans to wear a bright outfit today to make me happy, but I'm still sitting here with a cold, being all sick. #Ugh

So I'll just leave it at this:

Happy Birthday Toby! I love you and miss you fiercely! You've become an amazing young man, and I could not be more proud of you. You are compassionate and kind, smart and funny, and have the brightest soul out of anyone I know. You are my handsome man, and will always be my baby boy. I love you with all my heart.

Pictures of the man-child Toby, newest pictures first, to his first newborn picture, under the cut.

Days 49, 50 and possibly 51

Hey guys. I have the gunk. The ick. The sickness. 

Sorry, couldn't help it. 

But yeah, I'm ill. I've been laying on my couch playing sims 4 and napping for the last 48 hours. (And it will probably be another 24 hours or so until I feel like wearing clothing that isn't just a t-shirt and underwear. And y'all don't need to be seeing that. There's no fashion there. It's just death warmed over. 

My husband gave me his cold. But he's also feeling better enough to take care of me now, so that's good. He just made me eggs and toast and cream of wheat, so I'm gonna go eat and give him a kiss. 

Love y'all. I'll be back when I'm feeling better. 

xx

Beka

Day 48

My pictures this morning aren't great because my silly husband was making faces and kisses at me, telling me I was pretty and going "woo woo". LOL. Anyway, today's OOTD:

Lularoe Irma and TC2 leggings. Bright and cheery! Hair up because it's wet (I am freshly showered) and teal and sapphire necklace from Amrita Singh to pull the color up top. I'd like something with more dark blue in it, but I don't have anything. Oh well. Sapphire Blue Tieks to adorn my toes today. 

Husband is still sick, so I'll probably just be inside today. Woke up late (was up until 3am with him coughing and stuff), so OOTD is posted late. Sorry!

Mr. Soba Noodle has some new cage stuff arriving today, so I'll probably have him out for a bit while I remodel his cage. He did just eat, so he might be in a tub if he's not feeling being held. Sometimes he's ok with it and sometimes he's not. Depends on his mood and how his meal is sitting, but his cage needs cleaned and with him being shed-eat-growth spurting on me, I haven't been able to get to him recently. At any rate, if I get him out and he's cooperative, I'll take some pictures of him and possibly his new cage set up. If not today, it'll be sometimes in the coming weekend/week.

Going to go make Nathan some tea now. Poor guy. I hope he feels better soon. He just sounds miserable.

Love y'all!!

xx

Beka

Day 47

Day 47 OOTD is a casual one. My husband came home from Defcon with a cold, but he brought be back this cool t-shirt! I'm pretty sure the bright yellow parts glow in the dark. Of course, I don't have lilacs (sigh) because I didn't think I had enough purple to warrant getting them. Well, that's changing. lol. So I paired these with my comfy leggings and unmellow yellows. :D 

Today is going to be a chill day. Chloe is with my sister for the next week-ish (she likes to hang out there for long periods of time) and with my honey sick, I assume I'll be helping him out with everything today. lol. (He gets man-cold sick. It's hilarious.) 

So yeah. Not much happening here today. Shirt from Defcon, leggings from Torrid, Unmellow Yellow Tieks from Tieks! 

Close up

Close up of my gorgeous UY's. :D They're probably my favorite pair honestly. (Though I'm sure I say that about a lot of my tieks. haha)

Day 46

 Hey guys. Real quick, today's OOTD: Outlander stag shirt and jeggings (both from Torrid) and my Diamond White Croc's from Tieks. :) Earrings from amazon. (Fringe circle hoops)

I didn't get a close up of the shoes today, but I'll try to later. Out and about doing a bunch of errands today and forgot to even upload this until just now (doing it on my phone, so hopefully it turns out right. 

Love y'all!

xx

Beka

Day 45

I almost forgot to do OOTD today. I got distracted this morning by class reunion stuff, burning my mouth on my breakfast (prove that I should stick to protein shakes in the AM) and was making my grocery list. Just kind of a crazy morning! 

Today's outfit is a dress from Amazon (Sold Out, sorry), and Poppy Tieks. No jewelry today, giving myself a jewelry break today. Just didn't feel like it. 

I love how long this dress is. I actually have to pull it up to climb steps. Do you know how RARE that is for me??? lol. #TallGirlProblems

Poppy's are perfection. So pretty! 

Blooper/reject pictures